thoughts....

I never thought I'd be back at this place...this place of vulnerability...question..and longing-the place of hurt.

One can try for so long not to be here and yet one reaches this place again...twice

I try to avoid it...I do but *sigh* am I.... wow

Visions of bliss cascade my mind and yet they're nothing but a puff of smoke, a screen masking the true element at play...

It's funny really, the intentions of what one desires are so real and yet VERY much unattainable...

Can't always get what you want..oh trust me if I could...we'd be together and I'd never have to think about love...but I'd be worng in so many ways

Can't always get what you want but it seems so true, simple and yet the best move...well...alternative really

Wow...I spend so much into you and it never works...here's your part 2...different worlds but the same type....woe is me

I can't belive I gave it away..my heart...my love...my mind and for what? Some two-year raw deal affair that makes you question why even bother?

AM I THAT MESSED UP?

*sniffle*

You try to trust God...yopu honestly do..but then its as though it seems pointless like the cylce simply drudges on....

A slap in the face is what it is...

A sorry excuse for love and yet I miss you so

Undercover though good...yet wrong in so many ways

I always questioned how much you loved me..i never wanted to give my heart away..even she wasn't deserving enough...

Wow but you're just a .... and you don't understand

God help me find peace...solace...SOME form of comfort.

I don't wanna go back to that place...not with this one

Save me from myself...I don't wanna hurt anymore

*Throwback* "What are we REALLY doing?"

You know many of us struggle; we're not all perfect hence we wouldn't be here..but what i can't really understand is that life seems to give you some harsh events man.....its hard at times to even talk to people...we live in a world that it is corrupt, taboo and sometimes downright hypocritical.

In the relationship i pursue daily with God...I've been given- like all other Christians- a hard task...past sins now becoming habitual, lusts and desires that just seem to get deeply rooted everyday and aldo i am the one that causes all of that..*sigh* i even wonder at times why ppl treat ppl like that....in a world that categorizes sin so that "petty" sins such as stealing, lying and cheating are overlooked; but if you dare fornicate, commit adultery and don't even THINK about having feelings for the same sex!....the world sees it this way ..they all go to HELL!
It really gets to me to see that people (and i include myself) live in a self-pleasing, twisting-the-law-to- suit-my-needs type of society.... and its not even based on your belief..muslim, rasta,buddhist,or Christian...we all just...yow *sigh*

Life deals with us ah way star.... sometimes if we get caught in sin's mud pit we not even waan get up....cuz we fraid seh ppl watch us...dat they judge that we sin...cuz we're some PERFECT ppl...because we claim the name Christian *mmmmmm* *sigh*..life just generally makes u feel left out...esp wen u in sin......i only pray that we change our mindset toward our fellow man..think of ourselves in the situation..AND DON'T THINK YOU COULDN'T BE THERE..you NEVER can telll....God is so cool that he, through his word helps us to change no matter how far we are in sin..daily i try to take his hand but i fall and understand that I've got some guts opening up to y'all but yh its been on my heart for a while now...i only pray that the world gets better...aldo we living in the last days.....



God puts out a wanted ad: THE WORLD NEEDS HELP; COWARDS NEED NOT APPLY! If you found out that someone u loved was a murderer would you reject them; if you found out they were gay would you reject them; if you found out that they were a prostitute would you disown them?.....yow star we call wiself a CHRISTIAN country and if we a bun out all a dem tings deh yuh nuh mus tink seh d ppl dem naw guh change and in essence we're eluding ourselves of one of our purposes as Christians; think about if YOU were one of those persons struggling; no matter how deep a man is in stealing, homosexuality, fraud or murder he was NEVER born like that..no matter how much science may elude you.....that we have a gene that depicts who we are.... we all need help both u and i....so r u gonna step up to the plate? Or watch them die with their blood on your shoulders? (Ezekiel 3:18)

All I'm sayin is that as young ppl...we know of ppl who are hurting and seek comfort in alternative and detrimental ways..don't think that you cant help or that you cant be tempted to do such a thing....you never can tell help them and God will do the rest...restore them back to their first love so that sin will they not desire (Galatians 6:1-6)

Thanx 4 readin....God bless